Just when I thought things were good. Justin and I talked & he told me that he wouldn't even think of having another baby for at least 2 more years. WIth all my pregnancy complications, I have been advised not to conceive past 30. That is only 13 months from now. It reallys hurts to think I may not be pregnant ever again. It really saddens me.

Justin also said that he still isn't happy with things. I thought everything was fine. I guess that just goes to show how much I know. That hurts too.

The Night Before...

I start my practicum. I can't believe that this time is here. The last 9 months seem to have flown by. I can't believe it.

I am so nervous. OB/GYN, that is so what I would be looking for. I sure hope I can make a good impression on them tomorrow!!!

Another Night

I know I am going to pay for this tomorrow, but I can not get tired tonight. I think I am just very anxious over my project and test that I have tomorrow morning. They are very important, as they are the last class I have before I am scheduled to start my practicum on Tuesday. I need to pass. I feel so rushed, cause I haven't even had a full week to learn the material. I did well on my Microsoft Word, my Excel, I did awesome, but this Access, I feel like I don't know it & can't get the information to stick in my brain. I will have to try not to let myself think that so much is riding on this. This is what I have been working so hard for these last 9 months.

I found out today that Mikey will be getting his tubes put in October 11. That also turns out to be Liam's 6 birthday. Mikey also has to go on iron supplements along with his vitamins, cause his iron is very low. He came back at 6 & they said that a 12 is low.

Liam has officially graduated Kindergarten! I was so proud of him! My big boy!!! He has started summer holidays & is having a blast!!

Monday June 19, 2006

I know it has been a few days, but things have been fairly uneventful, up until today. I found out that I can't do my practicum at the Paed's, cause his partner's are leaving in July & he will already have to cut back on staff.

Then I found out that he wants to send Mikey for a whole wack of tests, cause he is developmentally behind in EVERY aspect and area. He is sending him for an MRI of his brain, to check for neurological problems, a special xray that will look at all his bones, bloodwork. They want to check his pituitary gland and his thyroid.

I am so upset by all of this. It hurts so bad. He is my baby & it is killing me that there may be other problems with him then the ones we already know about.

Wednesday School

Here I am...another morning of school almost done! I am liking this Excel stuff! It can do neat things!

I am so tired. I didn't sleep at all last night. Mikey woke up at 5am & I tried to lay with him. He fell back asleep, but at that time it was too late for me to even think about sleeping for just an hour. Suprisingly, I feel ok. Not too tired.

I am excited to go home~we got a new fridge today! I can't wait to go home & see it!!

2:00 AM

Well, nearly 2 am. I am not tired & I NEED to go to bed. I have Excel to work on! I hate going through these sleepless phases...

June 13 2006

It's been a couple of days, but my life has been boring, so I didn't think I needed to comment on it! I am here, at school, bored. I am waiting to do my Word exam & am not looking forward to it.

Today feels like a wasted day. I don't have my Excel textbook, so I can't work on that either. I want to go home.

NOt much is new in my exciting life. Liam wasn't feeling good this morning, so I am hoping that he is feeling better. I am sure the daycare or his school will call me if anything happens.

I am also waiting to hear if the Paediatrician will take me on for my practicum. Cross your fingers for me.

Edited to add:
I just finished my exam & I got 65%. Much better than Friday's mark.

THANK GOODNESS I AM DONE WORD!!!!

Now I am going to be starting Excel & I have about 2 weeks to finish that course, then it is on to Access for another 2 weeks. Talk about cramming it all in fast, huh? After that, I am scheculed to start practicum on the 7th of July. I thougt it would be the 3rd, but whatever, I am not complaining!!

4 am...

I can't believe it. Here I am, sitting in front of this screen, yet again & I can not sleep. It is 4am & although I feel tired, I can't sleep. I go through this every so often & I hate it. It is so frustrating.

Liam is spending the weekend {I think} with his Gramma Tammy. He doesn't see her often, so she wanted to take him for the whole weekend, but he wasn't big on that idea when he left here. We'll see tomorrow. Mikey went to bed well. We played outside for a bit with Cash & Cash even let Mikey take a rawhide bone right from out of his mouth & he didn't get mad or growl or anything. What a good puppy!

Justin is crashed & every normal human that I know is sleeping. I hate this feeling. It's like, it is so late now, that Mikey will wake up in a few hours, so what is the point of sleeping anyhow, KWIM?

Tonight I was lying on the couch & Cash wanted up, so I picked him up & put him beside me. I thought he would lay at my feet, but instead he came right up alongside me & put one paw & his head on my belly. I didn't know what to think. I didn't make him move, but it made me think of Kitty so much. That is something we shared. It was nice to feel that pet love again.